So this week has been a rough one. Penny was going through a growth spurt because she was nursing or trying to around the clock. Tuesday, she finally calmed down and slept all night long which meant my boobs were about to explode. Thankfully, JP nursed as normal to relieve a little bit of it. Yesterday night, my 3 year old decided that sleeping is for the birds. So I was up until midnight trying to get him to sleep. Then this morning he decided to wake up at 9am. All I wanted to do was sleep in because the twins were BOTH sleeping. So the bad mommy that I am I turned on spongebob and went back to sleep, lol. So I got an extra hour of sleep today...going to need it because now JP is going through a growth spurt wish me luck!

So we are three weeks in to twin parenthood and the adjustment to three kids instead of one. If I had to sum it up in one word I'd say it'd have to be "exhausting".

Boo has taken really well to the adjustment for the most part. The hardest things for him right now are really learning he can't hold the babies all the time and he isn't my top priority if a baby is crying. So on that end things aren't too bad. He's been fairly good he even tries to help by grabbing diapers and pacis. It's actually really adoreable because the other night I had to change penny before bed so I told hubby to go get a diaper. Without missing a beat boo comes running in with a pink diaper for her. So cute.

So the twins aren't too bad, but definitely much harder than my singleton son. When I had my first son I thought it'd be hard, but the adjustment wasn't really. He was mostly content he fed every 3-4 hours, took a paci, and we co-slept so I could fall right back to sleep during nursing. I quickly found out that it wasn't going to be so easy this time. Both of them are on different time tables it seems. While I nurse them together sometimes I often have to nurse them apart mostly because penny has latch issues. She will unlatch a billion times during a nursing session and the girl can't find a nipple to save her life. She will also shriek within seconds if she can't find it. She nurses every 2 hours and he every 3-4 hours. They also go through growth spurts seperate! (though today it seems they are both having a growth spurt together, is that good or bad?) Ugh! I can't just fall asleep during nursing either because I try at every session to nurse them both (it's kind of working penny is slowly increasing her time between feeds yay!). I'm also nervous since our bed is off the ground. When I was co-sleeping with my first son our bed was on the floor. I didn't even really want to co-sleep with these babies, but they sleep much longer if I do I really need the sleep. Though it is nice I get some snuggle time with both of them since I usually bond apart because of them being on different schedules.

I'll have you know though it's not all clouds and rain! While penny is a little more needy than her brother they both aren't too bad. We've gone out several times with all three kids in tow no issues other than being stopped 3948394839489384 times being asked "OMG are there twins in there?" "No, we just like to carry around two infant carseats for fun!" I still do not get why people ask if they are a boy and girl twins when one is wearing a PINK DRESS and the other is wearing a onesie w/pants that says "little GUY" on them. Seriously, is it not obvious? lol. Recovery wise I feel great. I'm down to 136lbs...hips still haven't gone down to normal size though so no jeans for me yet. So while it has been a bit tougher than my first experience hopefully it'll start getting easier.

Oh and on a side note when does the hunger go down? Holy crap I'm eating about the same amount as I did during pregnancy! I was never this hungry with my first.

Penelope Rose & Jeremiah Paul were born on August 19th, 2009 @ 12:21am & 12:24am. Penny weighed in at 5lbs 6oz 18 inches long. Jeremiah weighed in at 5lbs 8oz 19 inches long.

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The birth wasn't too bad, but we did end up transferring to the hospital. I was really hoping for that homebirth so a little bummed about that. However, I did have a natural birth regardless. I gotta say I'm thrilled about my little babies even if I barely sleep because they are all night nursers. :D

So we went to San fran for a concert that's why I've been away for awhile. I have to say I'm so glad to be home. I ended up getting burned to a damn crisp! apparently sunscreen does not work too well :(

Baby A is definitely still a boy! Baby B is definitely a GIRL! YAY.

Been without a camera from awhile, but here we go

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Well, Baby A is a BOY! Still have no clue on Baby B though lol.

Happy birthday to me! lol

I got to talk to my midwife today about having twins. It's hard making the "right" decision because honestly I have no idea what it is. She told me that my history (stillbirths, placenta abruption) is making her feel that a high risk doctor would be a better option for me. If it had just been twins with no prior history she would've felt comfortable. I understand her concerns I have the same! I've been so sad and upset thinking that I may need to give up my homebirth. The thing is I don't know! I really don't want to give up that dream, but at the same time not sure how comfortable I am. We have sometime before a real decision needs to be made as right now I plan to keep seeing my midwife along with the doctor of my choosing at least until 20 weeks or so. I talked to my husband about discussing things again after 20 weeks. If things are looking good maybe I'll be more comfortable...maybe I won't be...I guess I don't know. I'm sorry if this isn't the place, but I need to talk to someone who gets why the possible loss of a homebirth is so hard. My entire family thought I was crazy for trying a homebirth and when they found out it was twins they said "Good, now you'll have a real doctor". ugh, not helping there guys :( No matter where I am I still plan to have as natural birth as possible.

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I'm so tired of special snowflakes like whoa.

Happy holidays n' shit everyone :P

I really fucking loathe people.

KK I'm going to be gone until sunday (Go canada) so livejournal be good. No drama until I get back :P

We are going on a halloween party/trip this weekend. I've already got two costumes I can't wait. Ha, so you won't see me around much. Everyone have a fun halloween :)

It's been a long time since I've "blogged". I've been changing more than I ever thought I would. A lot of things that were once important aren't so important anymore. Lately I've been thinking about everything all the things I got wrong and all the things I got right. If I really had as much control over any of that as I thought I did. Not sure where I was going with this. Just ramblings of a drunken hippy I suppose. Cheers.

Happy New Years eve and New Years to everyone! I hope it's a safe one at that too :)